My youngest brother.

Feliz Ferdinand

My Self Reflect

Okay..it's been a while since the last post. I got lost with so many distractions and here I am again.  I made a promise to myself, which I have to achieve in 4 years to come. By hook or by crook, this is do or die.

You see, I hope to be successful as some of those people in this world. Some said, "Dream big, Earn Big" in reality, dreaming alone wouldn't help. Do dream big but work a lot. I read some books, and for sure there is no easy money. Right? All it takes is hard works. Even when you wanted to rob a bank, you'll pretty sure will do some research, do a little bit of homework. For sure you wouldn't wants to get caught. In order to avoid the police, there you go..so many plans to avoid them. Alas! There goes your work. see?

Make it short, this is my tiny step. Looking forward to the next step..next level. Adios!

I'm pissed off!

U see..i'm working with this one particular company..can't mention the name or else i might be sues. Scary! Okay,i admit that im just the part timer,but if u think about it again..i work the very same way as the other permanent staff do. I do the same file like what the permanent staff do..so why the hell i get paid late? Bullshit.
And this company seems like a colony of 1 race..full of them..maybe only 20-30% are non..whatever. They think they did it great but without us,things wont work out..

I hate being the employee..How i wish one day I could be the boss. I RULES! Build up my own empire..my own colony,my own world..how great it could be. So many things i plan to do.

I WANT TO BE THE BOSS!!!!
I WANT TO BE THE BOSS!!!!
I WANT TO BE THE BOSS!!!!
I WANT TO BE THE BOSS!!!!
I WANT TO BE THE BOSS!!!!

व्हत हर्ट्स THE MOST

What Hurts The Most

(VERSE 1)

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That dont bother me,
I can take a few tears now and then
And just let them out,
Im not afraid to cry
Every once in a while,
Even though going on with you
Is gonna still upset me,
There are days every now and again
I pretend im ok but thats now what gets me.

(CHORUS)

What hurts the most,
Was bein so close,
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
Im not sayin that loving you, is what i was trying to do...

(VERSE 2)

Its hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go,
But im doing it,
Its hard to force that smile when i see our old freinds,
And im alone,
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed,
Dealing with this regret,
But i know if i could do it over,
I would trade give away all the words that i say,
In my heart that ive left unspoken.

(CHORUS x 1)

Is what i was trying to do, oh oh oh ohhhh

(CHORUS x 1)

What hurts the most
Whenever you walk away, yeahhhh
Oh oh oh ohhhhhhh....G

Blood Ties_Insatiable by Darren Hayes

INSATIABLE_DARREN HAYES

When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I let it go
We build our church above this street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing in my heart
I am barely touching you

[Chorus]

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth
Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
The world doesn't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands

[Chorus]

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
Too much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you

[Chorus]

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

रेगात्ता २००९!! SARAWAK

Sarawak Regatta
Date : Jul 31 - Aug 2, 2009
Venue : Kuching Waterfront Sarawak
Organiser : Kuching Resident Office
Category : Arts, Culture and Entertainment

इ ऍम प्रौद तो बे SARAWAKIAN

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Friday, July 24th, 2009

Jarang enda keranka anak pandai: Snowdan

SRI AMAN: Semua apai indai jarang enda beratka pelajar enggau pemandai anak sida. Kebuah pia, laban anak ke bisi pemandai engka deka idup senang agi jemah ila, pia ku jaku Kaban Kunsil Nengeri sitak Balai Ringin, Snowdan Lawan.

Ku iya, perintah ngena sistem pelajar ke bisi baka ngena sekula, opis pelajar ba semua renggat, endang semampai merambu pelajar sekula ti pengabis manah sereta strategik ngambika mudah kena bala nembiak ke belajar ba sekula nya mujur dalam pelajar sida.

“Proses pelajar enggau belajar dikarapka enda puntan ba semua sekula, serimbai enggau nyikap bala nembiak enggau penemu, tang ngambika pekara tu nyadi nyata, nembiak enggau pengajar mega enda tau enda bebendar ba pengawa sida belajar enggau ngajar.

“Peresa sekula enggau peresa ari perintah mega manah dikena nakar sereta nyukat lalu nguji tikas pemandai enggau penemu nembiak, kena nentuka tikas penyulut akademik sida siku-siku.

“Nyadi kena napi peresa sida, kelimpah ari ke naka ulih nitihka singkang pelajar dalam kelas, bala nembiak mega dipinta ngiga penemu enggau pemandai alternatif ngambika sida lebih nyulut baka macha bup, internet, tuisen sereta mega enggau ba program motivasi enggau penyulut dalam akademik ke bisi diatur,” ku iya.

Snowdan mansutka jaku nya lebuh ke bejadi penutup Program Motivasi Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah (UPSR) ti diatur Yayasan Sarawak enggau Zon Telagus, Pantu, Sri Aman ditu apin lama.

Ngenang pasal Program Motivasi nya, pengari rayat nya madah, program ti diatur Yayasan Sarawak enggau Zon Telagus nya sebagi ari tanggungjawab begulai ulih kitai semua kena mantu bala anak napi peresa UPSR ila.

Iya madah, gaga bendar ati meda mayuh bendar bala nembiak sama ulih enggau dalam program tu.

Ku iya, tu manah bendar kena mantu bala nembiak ke deka ngambi peresa laban endang deka dibantu ulih bala fasilitator ari bala pengajar ke landik dalam meri lalau enggau sanding penemu ngagai bala nembiak.

Sida nya endang dipilih ulih Opis Pelajar Menua Sarawak kena mantu bala nembiak nyikap diri napi peresa UPSR nya.

Agi mega, iya mega minta bala apai indai nembiak ke nyadi kaban Gerempung Apai Indai - Pengajar sama begembar enggau pengajar ba sekula berakup ngemajuka pelajar bala anak sida ngambika tuju sekula ti deka nyulut dalam akademik ulih japai enggau mudah।

The Song of the Heart

Don't leave empty spaces in your heart

Fill it up with my love

Never put your beautiful eyes on others

Please have your focus on me...

Baby let me have the key

The one that opens your heart

For I have loads of love

Which i reserved only for you

c/o

If only your love could be mine

I shall smile the whole mile

Till the road to my ending life

Coz I have not much time

to be satisfy...

baby my life is short

How shall i spend it right?

If without you to share with

Teach me baby,

the way to live my life...

created by;
Beatrice&Nelly(supporting)

Hello!!

hello..
It's 24th July and it's pay day. For gov servants only. Me? I'm excluded. Mine is another 1 week...%^&*^$#...whatever. Okay, i felt tired and its now 45minutes after 6pm. Went out for field work just now, drove around Kuching area with my new scooter.Oww!! That one i like it..hehehe. It's quite tiring, and i wonder how my senior could visit up to 30 file per day. Ridiculous! Just now i brought around 11files but i manage to visit only 7 files succesfully. The others were not found, so i plan for a revisit lor...So that was it.

Now,what I learned for today? One of my debtor (but its under my colleague name!) pay RM5500 today. But the real amount he used was lower than that. I can tell u, banks are lisenced Ah Long. Believed me. Although BANK sound secure but it surely ate u bit by bit without u knowing it. So for the credit cards users, use it wisely and do not forget to pay once u've use it. Thats important.

bye for now..

barbeQ

hai n helo..quest what..yesterday we have family gathering and barbeque..sponsored by Uncle Dep. (need to mention it here bcoz he highlight it when he invited us last week. Give him some credit maa..)
all were like usual..u know laa..lamb,chicken wings,sausage..and all that. O ya,the main reason for the barbeque is for our granny,belated Mother's day...lol. Good for her neway..there's a lot i would like to put up here but time is running out..already past 5pm.huhuuu...

and the last thing is that,in the end they gather and discuss about my sister wedding!!!!

harggghhh...what to say anymore..

What?! Am i suppose to be happy or sad??

yea..kinda weird huh..

picture of Aven..

the story is like this. My older sister, Avie is getting married this December. The Guy is a Sabahan, named Aven. Coincident? Whatever..

Okay, straight to the point. I don't know what should i feel. Should i be happy for her or otherwise? The thing is that, I've been imaginate us, all of our sibling in the future when all of us were grown up, have a good job, great pay,..something like that. (Marriage is still to far. It was suppose to be that way.) We spend our weekend together,laughing,joking..its all in my head..and it's almost a reallity. But then, everything were so different. I am so frustated. Why should she gets married so early? WHy??

Maybe i'm being selfish, but i don't care!

How could you? Can't you just wait for another 2-3 years more?! What? Macamla dia tu nak lari..menyampah!

Help me!!!!

I bought my new motorbike last Monday!

hai guys..

i bought a brand new scooter last Monday..on the 6th July. I trade in my old motorbike which is exactly after 3 years i used it. I bought it around July 17 and i sold it 4th July. 51% lesser then the amount i bought it. Though i miss 'em sometimes, still im too happy for my new scooter. The only thing is that my SS2 i bought it cash, but now i have to loan the scooter...3 years dude! From the exact price its RM5200 and when i pays up to 3 years the total price is amounting to RM7200! What daa**&%...

Hopefully i strike lottery so that i can pay up all the amount at once. I wish!! LOL!

This means i have to handle my $ really careful. Get ready for any consequences..rite?